IF I COULD LIVE MY LIFE OVER AGAIN
Ecclesiastes 2:26 To the person who pleases him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind.
When I look back over my life, I see where I could have done something’s better, but how would I have known that? I’ve heard people say; “If I could live my life all over again, I’d do this or that differently.” But, from my experience, I know people who say that don’t get it!” They don’t get that, most likely, the decisions they made in life were based on the level of knowledge and life-learned experiences, they had to draw from at that time. Sometimes there’s just not enough “good decision making skills stored up, to make mature, sound choices.”
I remember when my children’s father and I got married and bought our first house. I was 20 y/o; he was 25 y/o. We thought we really had it going on back then. But, in hindsight, I realize just how false that perception was. You see, we felt like we really had it going on for the wrong reasons. You could say we were a little puffed up, but still thankful.
So, in our first minds we bought a house; our second minds reminded us that buying the house was made possible by my husband’s parents, whom lovingly gave us the down payment, negotiated the purchase price and sealed the deal. Basically, we woke up one morning and found out we were getting a house, and it’s was ours, if we wanted it. “Both of our parents were big on property ownership.” I’m saying in short; not having to sacrifice to get our first home, kinda gave us a false sense of security. We did not know the things don’t come that easy in the real world.
It’s been more than 25 years since I lived in that house, 4 years since my ex lived there, because The Lord called him home. And like the good book says; the house passed on to another, who does not have a clue about the toil and strife the previous owner’s went through to preserve and keep that house. In fact, he’s most likely like my ex and I were when we first acquired the house….thinking we deserved it!
So, if I say, “if I could live my life all over again, And the same circumstances applied; I would do things differently! “I would be fooling myself!” How could that be possible, if I just did not know enough to know better?”